I have said this plenty of times before, starting your own business from the ground up is a lot of hard work, dedication, and motivation. I think you need those three qualities to stay focus on the end goal in anything you want to achieve in life. This journey has been amazing, stressful, a growing experience for me and I wouldn’t do want to change anything about it. The financing part of it has been the hardest to take on. I have been struggling with that the most. It has definitely put me in some debt that I am constantly worried about, but I just keep telling myself that it will be worth it in the end. It’s an investment that will kickstart my career, my brand, and who I am as an entrepreneur.
I have expressed in earlier blogs the depression and anxiety I have gone through and how I am trying to change. I have started the many business endeavors to use as a coping mechanism. Lately, it has been really hard for me to keep pushing on and striving for the best. Anybody who knows me, knows that I always try to achieve to my full potential. These days, all I’ve been wanting to do is give up. I felt that pattern coming. First, I cry and feel sorry for myself. Then, I cry and act like I don’t care. I cry all the time and isolate myself. I don’t want to talk and be around people. Then, my mind starts to go into that dark place. I start having suicidal thoughts and every day, they get worse and worse.
I am writing this and sharing this because if your going through a tough time right now, no matter what it is, just focus on the things that make you happy. Focus on the things that brings positivity into your life because even if you give the things that brings you positivity a little bit of attention, you smiled and was able to have a warm heart at some point in your day. When I sit and write a blog, I’m happy. When I start writing some of my e-book, I’m happy. When I come up with a new idea for a TV or film script and I have to get it down, I’m happy. When I’m doing anything for my skin care product line, I’m happy. No, all of my stressors didn’t go away, but my mind isn’t plaguing and dwelling on the negativity.